YOLO I guess..?
I’m so close to a relapse it’s scaring the hell out of me. I’m 22 years-old… I know cutting isn’t the solution but the urge… And these feelings… I don’t want to kill myself that never crosses my mind but it’s like if someone came to murder me I wouldn’t put up much a fight. Or I think scenarios like, freak accidents. Thoughts if being beaten to death. I gotta get my meds adjusted but no Psychiatrist currently… I’m so stressed. My emotions keep going hay wire happy, sad, mad… All for no reason. Just. Fuck. Plus, I gotta paper due in the AM